| Wednesday, April 12th, 2006 |
| 9:19 am |
update
so brian and i are finally official and i couldnt be any happier...like seriously we spend so much time together and he lights up my life..... last night when we were driving he looked at me and said....its so easy and so much fun to love you , i love him more and more everyday.... now...tun tun tun ..... so i think his ex is back in the picture and if yall recall correctly i have the worst luck...like with jimmy for example...everything was fine then the ex came back....nick everything fine then the ex came along...i just dont want history to repeat itself...sigh |
| Tuesday, February 28th, 2006 |
| 4:06 pm |
today is not a very good day...im so frustrated with work , with people...mostly jimmy.....i know he makes me so sad all the time.....but i love brad and travis so jimmy is kinda included in the paCKAGE..WHY? WHY? WHY? |
| Monday, February 20th, 2006 |
| 2:22 pm |
wise words by doug
im sharing all of my guy drama with doug .....so doug just answered all of my philosophical problems with one little story.... there was a daddy bull and a baby bull and they are on a mountain overlooking a herd of cows... the baby cow goes, hey dad lets run down there and bang one of the cows.... the daddy bull says i have a better idea..lets walk down there and bang them all!!! moral of the story is you have to have patience and tact you cant just jumop into things... hahaha good story doug....i knew i could count on you for the right answer!!!! s |
| 2:18 pm |
its the end of the world as we know it
im so sad, mad, all at once.... i really dont know what to do..im seriously thinking of cutting boys out f my life all together ..they cause too much pain, too much drama...and im just happy withoutthem..so im giving up on love...cause love has given up on me...yup |
| Wednesday, February 8th, 2006 |
| 1:54 pm |
so i have been back at my parents for a week now... i guess its ok..im never really there..so i guess i dont feel it that much i love my mom ...she is super awesome... so yesterday i went to the movies with david christian....an old friend from high school...i hadnt seen him since we were sophmores...weird huh? well im probably gonna hear shit about it from people....but it wasnt a date...so yeah.... anyways we met up with phinaro and andrea at applebees.....i hadnt seen them in about the same amount of time.... well we left and went to go watch hoodwinked....i didnt like it that much.... so yeah .... im tired of getting my heart pooped on..... why cant boys just make up their minds on what they want.... oh well.... when he comes around...ill be waiting ...and eagerly at that |
| Monday, January 30th, 2006 |
| 10:23 am |
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| 10:08 am |
so im back at the parentals... i wont be there for long, i spent all day yesterday looking at apartments..haha i havent unpacked and im ready to leave again...this time i will make a wise roommate decision....woo hoo...for fun times in my new apartment...but i have to start over..new couches, new tv....tis time im paying for it all ...so i can keep it...... i miss brian more than words.....i cried about twenty million different times yesterday ...just thinking about him..... he was like always there with me...and now he is an effin hour and a half away...what am i to do? haha ill see him today...woo hoo |
| Friday, January 20th, 2006 |
| 3:55 pm |
today so far has been pretty good. Nothing really to complain about.i spent the night at my parentals last night so i had my mommy all morning to entertain me...yay for mommys.. so i have the bestest friend ever. Brian could not have come into my life at a better time...i love hanging out with him...he always makes me soooOOOooo happy... no matter what it is we do ..i adore being around him.. so anyways i get to hang out with his sister and her fiance tomorrow and a couple of more friends.. today i get to just hang otu with brian....i think we are gonna go see a movie and go out to eat... i think that is what is in the agenda for the day... oh and im going to barnes and noble to buy a book...to learn italian ...before i actuaslly take the class. damn you jean |
| Thursday, January 19th, 2006 |
| 10:36 am |
There's three in the hall From those pictures in the closet Two in the bedroom From that night that I lost it And one deep inside me Determined to stay They don't get any bigger But they don't go away Chorus: Holes in and around me I keep falling back into Holes dig in and surround me God knows that I'm gonna do To fill in these holes... left by you I poured drink after drink But nothing hit bottom I've been on my knees Admitted my problems The love that we made Is still barely an echo I'll try anything In these vacant hollow Chorus: Holes in and around me I keep falling back into Holes dig in and surround me God knows that I'm gonna' do To fill in these holes... left by you There's two through my hands and one through my feet From this cross that I'll bear till the day that I see It's guilt and it's blame it's shame and it's hell Seeking the truth... I've dug them myself All these holes dig in and surround me God knows what I'm gonna' do To fill up these holes... left by you |
| Tuesday, January 17th, 2006 |
| 11:51 am |
my life sucks
YUP....IT DOES..IM SO FRUSTRATED TODAY...DONT REALLY KNOW WHY..MAYBE CAUSE ALL IN MY LIFE GOES WRONG..I HAVE A MILLION HOURS TO GO BEFORE I FINISH SCHOOL....MY FIRENDS ARE ALL SO FAR AWAY...I HAVE NO BOYFRIEND...THE ONES THAT ACTUALLY SHOW INTREST ARE NOT ALL THAT GREAT...WHERE IS MY PRINCE CHARMING.....IM GIVING UP ON LOVE ...CAUSE LOVE HAS GIVEN UP ON ME.... BRIAN IS MY ONLY HAPPINESS...AND JEAN AND EURY.....BUT THEY ARE ALL SO FAR BOO FOR MY EFFIN DIABETES!!!! I FEEL LIKE CRAP...... LIKE EVERY OTHER EFFIN DAY |
| Monday, January 16th, 2006 |
| 8:53 am |
ok so i have not been getting along at all with jimmy...everytime we talk i end up hanging up on him...i really dont know why ...we just kinda always end up fighting...oh well... well friday i went to trade days with brian, it was a really cool place..they sold all kinds of neat things...and puppies!!! and ducks!!! haha well we walked around ....then we decided to get a funnel cake..and a cheeseburger....yum they were both like super awesome..so yeah...we left and drove around celina....i really wana live in the country when i get older...and i dont want it any other way...haha so then we went to livestock show....brian guided me through the cow pies..haha....well after that we went to my apartamento...he left around 6....so i went to irving...for no reason.....we all went out to eat ...and i ended up pating for jimmy again!!!!! awwwwwww.....i didnt bother me before...but now its just like expected of me.....i hate that...so anyways i left around 11...went to eurys and spent the night there..... early saturday morning jean did a wake up call...so i woke up and we went to register at NORTH LAKE!! haha we left around 2...we went to eurys reataurante where we get to eat for free now....then we went to my parentals....from there we went to the parks mall..and we got to see ben~~~~!!!!....then i had to head back home to see Brian...so we ended up going to walmart...returning or fishng pole...so we decided to go to olive garden with the money....after that we just headed home... sunday....i woke up around 9....my spaced for like 3 minutes...laid back down and didnt wake up till like 12....so i got up...junior came over...we were suppose to go to the aquarium but thats on brian and my list so we didnt..... * UMMMHHHH I JUST HAD AN AWESOME K K DONUT* umh back to my story so we just hung out and watched movies and ate taco bueno.....well that was my night... ooooooohhhhh i went to the fitnes room last night...and i hadnt used the cluhouse restroom like ever...so i decided to go....they have everything you could need..samples of mouthwash, hairspray, you name it they have it.....all free...haha so that made me a little excited...well i guess thats all Current Mood:  contentCurrent Music: martina macbride "this is for all you girls" |
| Friday, January 13th, 2006 |
| 11:24 am |
so i cant go to sleep....adn i have no idea why!!! i just ahd the weirdest dream...i dreant that i lived with diana and heidy....then all these people that use to hate me in high school started showing up...with their babies...weird huh? haha....well boys lik pooping on my heart...and well i have finally gaven up....dont listen to what any of them say...when they say i wont hurt you ...they just mean i will be sneaky about it and try nott to hurt you......by not getting caught.....awwww.well so much for that!!! |
| Thursday, December 29th, 2005 |
| 2:44 pm |
then there was wendsday
So yesterday like we said I showed up to work late….boo for work….i hate my job….i was so sleppy…I got home to find adrianas bf and bro playing x-box for the millionth time this week…must be nice…..so I go in my room…..oh I go see jm mom…..shes doing better….i think….well after that I go hang out with Brian…we ate quiznos…and then I slept..yup I slept..like a moron….i fell asleep in the guest room…haha…aww and brian totally set the alarm for me….and put buttons on the feet of the bed to guard me….how cute is he?....seriously he is so amazing…..and this time im not trying to fool myself into thinking he is amazing Well I woke up around 5 am….but left to work at 7 20…late again..woo hoo… So today we are going to dinner and a movie… Ill update later |
| 2:35 pm |
this was tuesday
Ok so lets see...Tuesday I came to work…then afterwards I went home..took a shower and went to go have dinner with JM…its so weird how you can stop talking and hanging out with a person..adn when you finally see each other again…its like nothing ever happened….so we ate at jasons deli..i had a panini..and half of his salad…haha..but he kept biting my pickle…so I guess we are even…we went to go see his mom…shes not doing to good…well I don’t really think I should share what is going on…so yeah we went to the barnes and noble….there I bought that book hes not that into you…..awesome book….well while I was there Brian called….so I parted with JM…and drove to Prestoon , TX…there we played with buttons, we watched the notebook, “say im a bird brian” , haha…well I had the most amazing time…I woke up around 7 am to leave like at 7 :35..yeah I was late to work….but so was everyone else…haha…. |
| Monday, December 26th, 2005 |
| 11:46 am |
MY CHRISTMAS WEEKEND...
SO FRIDAY I WOKE UP....AND DID MY CHRISTMAS SHOPPING THANK YOU NORTH PARK MALL FOR PROVIDING ME WITH THE MALL I LIKE TO CALL HEAVEN.....HOLD ON....there....so i finished shopping...then i met up with eury at valley view mall ....we drove to jimmys and brads...she had to drop off their presents....Jimmy had made me cupcakes...that eurys brother later ate...and brad made eury muffins....so we all drove to get lunch...i felt bad the whole night...damn diabetes.....so then Brian called around 8 and thats about the time we left....we went to jeans where we saw, celia and lasey.....then we went to work...i got to meet CJ, JOHN, CHRIS, CARLOS, JASON, umh i dont remember who else....oh wait robert duh?.....umh turns out CJ likes me...according to Eury....umh ok so we got off work at 9 am...i went home slept..woke up like at 3.....finished wrapping presents...went to my parents...my friend chris...came over..then we went to forth worth...where i slept some more....then i went to my parentals...slept some more...opened peresents....slept some more......now its x-mas....kept sleeping...woke up had dinner...slept....eury came over....we went to go see chris at work.....went to her house....my spaced with Brian...and slept...now here i am at work~~~~...i get off at 1 to go shopping...woo hoo!!!! |
| 11:35 am |
thursday.....
umh so lets see i worked till 5....i got off..went home did nothing....and then..tun tun tun ....i went grocery shopping..haha i bought alot of junk..chips and drinks mostly......well when i was by the lunch meat section i felt someone breathing behind me ....i turbed around ..and i t was BRIAN.....yay he rocks my socks... so we finished shopping then we went to my apartment...there we decided to go have dinner at macarroni grill....yum ..it was awesome....umh i think he wants me to be more serious...ill work on that....anyways we left...we started singing in the car....some micheal jackson song came on....that one and only love song.....he turned it up....opened the doors..and started dancing in the parking lot...we had an audience...a small one..but an audience....then we drove off to the country to see where he lives....oh my god.....this house was massive..haha now i can stalk him...haha..so he took me to look at the stars and christmas lights....and he tried to hunt down a coyotr so i could see it...haha....well then we went back to my place...and did alot of nothing...and like always i fell asleep...and he left sometime after that..... well that was my night...
. Current Mood:  accomplishedCurrent Music: KENNEY CHESNEY YET AGAIN |
| Thursday, December 22nd, 2005 |
| 11:09 am |
sorry guys
ok so i havent written in here..in like forever and a day....i was just waiting for some drama to stop...and i think it finally has....ive been ok...not done much..hung out with the usuals...done the usual..actually no...ive been hanging out with all my friends whom i seemed to ignore .... well ill start with yesterday...it had a crappy start...got in trouble at work for stuff i didnt do...went to lunch at la madeline..yum...OOOooooh when i was there John Micheal called me.....which is weird and odd to me when he calls but he did...he asked what i wanted for christmas...umh i said nothing...he said just checking and we hung up...haha....so then i went back to work...boo!! i got off at 5 ..drove home...haha you like my day so far huh!!! haha....cleaned my room...ate cheesesticks....watched pretty woman...then sebastian came over...we went to starbucks..then he just dropped me off at home..OH YEAH.paul's home...so is frank...they are my marine buddy people.....im sopose to go see them today..but im lazy...so no...sebastian wants to hang out tonight again...lorraine wants to go to the club...i dont know what to do...ooohh and i think im suppose to go to pf changs.... dont know yet....if thats today.....boooo!!! umh well i guess thats all....i havent hung ou twith brian since sunday!!! how do i do it?...the world may never know!!! haha Current Mood:  enthralledCurrent Music: kenney chesney |
| Friday, December 16th, 2005 |
| 9:16 am |
hey brian did you hurry home to read my journal? haha punk you promised...too bad i erased everything about you or from the moment we started hanging out!!! so ha....haha...you suck at life...talk to you later |
| Sunday, December 11th, 2005 |
| 1:05 pm |
fun time~~~ woohoo
so yesterday was a pretty ok day!!! umh first i met Kaleigh and Jordan for lunch...Kaytlan and Jessica had cheer practice so they didnt make it out. So we girlys ate and laughed...and laughed...it was so much fun!!! well then we wen to kaleighs to drop off jordans car...we saw the boys (jimmy and his friends) playing football bu twe didnt stop...we drove by like 4 times...i was like crap if he saw me...h totally thinks im stalking him!!!! haha well he called later and i explained everything to him...haha...so jordan and i go to jeans...where she was just laying in bed...we chatted with her for awhile..then went to go meet eury...we then drove to my apartment....woo hoo!! haha there we met up with Greg an Andrew....we hung out for the rest of the night...they were drinking and it was like the funnest and funniest night ever!!!!! so yeah!!! ummmhhh....so i woke up early this morning and took jordan to get her car...now im at my parent..im fixing to go home...and get ready i get to go hang out with Brian...brian is my new buddy who lives 4 seconds away from me!!! haha....umh he is the guy in the middle in the pics i posted earlier....blue shirt...earing!! haha ...he is such an awesome guy...so is greg....except for the fact that he hates that i dont like him...haha last night he told jordan...that at first he really lik dme...but he realised i didnt want anyhting more than friendship...so now he respects that...haha too bad he always goes hey adrian wanna make out?...who does that?...who says that?...good pick up line!!! haha....umh greg is he guy in the pics too...hes by himself ith the backwards hat..coo huh?...hahah just s oyou can get a visual..haha ...well i got to go mu electronic friendo!!1 haha |
| Saturday, December 10th, 2005 |
| 11:30 am |
umh ok so last night wasnt very exciting...i totally hadnt slept more than 30 minutes the night before....well things between jimmy and i are totally over...no more...which is kinda really sad...and weird...im used to being with him 24/7...so now i have to change my schedule....well i still get to see him all the time...we have the same group of friends now...like tomorrow im having lunch with Kaytiln, Kaleigh, Jessica and Jordan at 3:30..yay that is gonna be totally exciting..then from there Jordan and I are gonna come to my apartment to get ready to go to the party that night....so yeah...same parties..same friends...but i know i can handle just being his friend...nothing hard about that...so yesterday Eury came over...it was my roommates birthday...so we ate...then we watched a movie...which i slept like 1 minute into...i woke up at 5...to two text messages one from jimbo...one from kaleigh...so yeah now i sit here...with nothig to do....i ll probably shower in a minute...but its so frerakin cold...i seriously hate my life...well we figured out how to get the fire started...to bad i have nobody to share it with...oh and i think its so sad that once boys here you are broken up...they are like hey baby..you sad...shit hang ou twith me....haha no...no...and no...seriously...you should totally see my inbox its crazy...Doug kept laughing at the many ways these boys will come about hitting on you....Doug is my guru my mentor...totally has the best advice ever...and he gives it to you straight...well thats all world talk to you later Current Mood:  quixoticCurrent Music: none |
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